Am So Excited!

Music: Evanescence live Youtube clips. And Breath No More.

Mood: Excited.

Evanescence played a secret show earlier this month! And now most of the band members are on Twitter (and have been for a while!). I can’t believe it took me this long to find out. I haven’t been to Evanescence.com  in too long. I stopped checking it awhile ago. I guess I should have. I miss them but am very excited that they are back at it. It kind of inspires me to get back to the piano and writing and stuff.

So what are ya’ll doing for Thanksgiving? I’m not doing anything. That’s right you heard me, nothing. I’ve decided to take a break from the Holidays this year: no time, no money, no Holiday spirit. Yep me. No Holiday spirit. Some people would be surprised about that. I guess it is a part of growing up. You can no longer pretend that the Holidays are so great. So cheerful. No more Santie Claus. I am watching the Thanksgiving Day parade tho. Can’t break tradition (well not all traditions, that doesn’t can’t as celebrating it does it?)

Radio stations are playing Christmas music non-stop again. I turn them on and feel nothing where usually I’d be soooooo excited that Christmas was coming! Not anymore. Maybe again but not now. Not this year.

I feel I’m being dramatic.

Actually talking about drama! Adam Lambert. I liked his performance. Thought it was thought provoking. I would just like to ask: Why did no one think Lady Gaga’s performance was racy if they thought his was?

That’s all I’m sayin’.

My AF classes ended. They were really good and looking back on them fun! I love painting and this class really did remind me why I love it. I think I don’t actually suck at it too. That’s nice too know. I think next weekend I am devoting to music and painting. It’s time I started doing things I love again.

I got Windows 7 in the mail. I haven’t switched over to it yet though. Am kind of scared. I don’t want Windows 7 paint I like the original paint. Yeah I know ridiculous. But paint is the simplest program to use, that’s why I love it. Don’t change that!

Laptop battery is low. Must be going. More to come (maybe). And if I don’t write again before then (which it’s unlikely I will) Happy Thanksgiving!  (Which I’m not participating in so not happy anything to me.)

~ Sparks Out ~

Is It Too Early Think Of The Year As Almost Over?

Music: Innerpartysystem.

Mood: Procrastinating.

It’s already half way through November! I can’t believe it! This year has sucked. I’m happy it’s over and looking forward to a new year. I tried to get a lot of things done this year. And for the most part I did get some done. I felt like I did manage to grow in some ways but in others I feel I want backward.

I wish that I had more control over my life. Sometimes there is only so much you can do and I think sometimes you need to realize that and not necessarily give up but move on. Realize you’ll do what you can and let the rest happen when it’s out of your control. That is a really hard thing for me to do. It’s probably hard for most people to do.

I’m planning my baking blog which, I have decided, won’t have anything to do with any of the other sites and usernames I have already. It will be completely new not connected to anything. I’m excited about it!

Painting class has been going really well! I love painting and learning about it and doing it more often has really helped me love it even more. I want to take the class again in the spring. It’s good to be able to do nothing but paint undistracted for an hour and a half. I’m considering taking a clay class again but am not sure. I’m definitely volunteering again. That was really fun as well. I have a feeling that I’ll be helping out with the same class again.

Some things I have accomplished this year though are: Baking a lot, Painting again, Dyeing my hair, Cutting off all my hair, Completing FAWM again, Joining a book club, Volunteering at my library, Volunteer at AF and Getting a computer.

Wow some of that stuff I did so far back I can’t believe it hasn’t even been a year yet. This year drug on, me thinks, and also sped by.

Still I kind of feel like the most important things I needed to get done are still undone. Which bothers me to no end. I guess I still have a month and a half right? Maybe I can get two more important things done before then.

Anyway I’m going to work on those and you all stay healthy. Will hopefully post again soon (or not).

~ Sparks Out ~

Everybody Dies

It’s true everybody dies and there is no way to stop it. There is only ways to cause it. Sure there is CPR and the countless things doctors and nurses and emergency people can do but it the end it is inevitable that it will end. I don’t know what I mean by this or why. Everyone is scared of it but I don’t think people really fully realize, they just go through their life without thinking about the fact that one day there life will not be, anymore. I’m not saying that’s a bad thing like maybe people shouldn’t really be fixated on the fact that they are going to die or anything ’cause that can be worse then not thinking about it because then the only thing people think about is dieing to the point where maybe they end it. I think what I’m saying is seize the day. Because no matter who you are and where you live. You live. Somebody else is dead. While you live live.

Phils in the World Series again! (With the Yanks!)

Phillie’s made it into the World Series again! Yay! Yankees are the opposing team which sucks because I don’t know who to root for, since I root for both of them most of the time.

The first game is tonight. Should be interesting.

Go Phils! Go Yankees!

Another post to come soon, about Halloween and such.

I Just Made Chocolate Chip Muffins.

It’s true I did.

They were good.

It’s true.

It’s Been A Long Time

Music: Evanescence – Good Enough.

Mood: Quiet.

Wow it’s been a long time since I wrote a blog post.  Was on vacation, which was fun, and was getting back into the swing of things that start again in the fall. Am volunteering everywhere and taking so many classes. Am busy but not busy enough. I always have the feeling I should be doing more. Every time I am watching TV or a movie I feel like I’m being lazy and should be doing other things. But alas I continue to waste my time away watching things. At least I watch good things. This season of How I Met Your Mother seems like it’s going to be very good.

I had fun on my vacation to the beach. I got up, one day, at sunrise so I could take pictures of the sun rising over the ocean. I took some pretty good pics. I went to the beach a lot and painted a bit but not as much as I wanted to. I took lots of pics. But I was very glad to come home after a week.

It’s been so long since I last posted I barely remember some of the things I did.

The biggest thing that happened since I last posted was… I cut off 14 inchs of my hair! I didn’t like how my hair looked at first but I think I like it now. I haven’t had short hair since I was very little. It’s cool to have it again.

I just started a painting class that promises to be interesting. I got to do some painting in the last class. I really need to paint more. As I love getting the finished product even if it didn’t turn out how I wanted it to it still is something I managed to finish. You know?

Lately I haven’t been doing all that much creatively I think I’m ignoring all my creative urges which is terrible. I know. I’m planning on doing something creative soon. Throwing myself back into the swing of it.

Musically I got a new piano teacher. He is interesting. He seems to know a lot about music theory which is good because I really need to learn more. I vowed that when I got a new teacher I would practice more but alas that has only been half true so far. Last week was one of the worst weeks so far. I think I’d be really good at piano if only I’d practice.

I just discovered a new artist (well new to me) on Pandora. She’s got a band called Plumb. I’m really digging her. Apparently Plumb is one of Evanescence’s influences. But she’s christian rock. It’s not a bad thing it’s just I’m not into that much christian rock. I’m kind of annoyed at Flyleaf lately all they ever sing about is god. I get and respect that you like to sing about all aspects of your life and god is a part of that but there are other aspects too right? I’m kind of not listening to them too much anymore.

Paramore just released a new CD yesterday called Brand New Eyes. I heard it on their Myspace and have to say I’m kind of disappointed in them. Apart from the two singles they’ve released off of it I haven’t been impressed with their latest stuff. I thought it was going to to darker and better and older and everything but they still sound like teenagers in a basement banging out whatever sounds good to them. And maybe that is too harsh a judgment but you have to remember, I like this band. And I love Hayley’s singing style. It’s just, I don’t know, I expected more, this is their third album you know? Maybe it was time too switch it up a bit. But I don’t know, I guess they can’t change who they are. But I think they can change how they sound some. I haven’t bought the CD yet and unless it grows on me some, I’m not sure if I’m going to. I guess I also think maybe they should change with their fans some you know? Grow up with them a little?

Anyway as always it’s just my opinion feel free to think something different – no actually, I encourage you to think something different. If everyone had the same opinion it would be downright wrong. And boring. Deadly boring.

You know I believe you can die from boredom. I just decided that.

Within Temptation are going to release a new live dvd. I want to get it. It looks cool.

Craig Ferguson just released his memoir, I got it in the mail the other day. I want to read it so much but I am busy reading other things right now.

Which segues nicely into the fact that I joined a book club! Yeah, at my local library. The first book we are reading for October is the Glass Castle. Which I’ve only read a little of because I’m busy reading other books. I’m reading entirely too much.

Talking about Paramore earlier made me realize I started this blog near too the time their last album came out and now they have new one. I’ve had this blog for 2 years this month!!! Wooo! That shows some commitment on my part I think. I can’t believe it’s been two years. 63 posts in two years. That averages thirty one and a half posts every year.

~ Sparks Out ~

Rainbow Cupcakes!

Music: Meg and Dia – Hug Me – on Pandora

Mood: Good.

*NOTE: I wrote this post a week and a half ago it’s a little outdated but I’m posting it anyway*

I made rainbow cupcakes this past weekend and that inspired me to start me own baking blog! I bake every weekend and like taking pictures of what I make and posting them places so why not start a blog dedicated to just that? I think I’m going to do it. Not yet though in a few months maybe, October.

I wanted to make rainbow cupcakes for days so I finally did yesterday and they came out better then I thought they would. I used gel food color because I had gel and apparently gel is supposed to look better and it came out wonderful. There is something weird about eating a multi colored cake though. It feels kind of unnatural. I also made multi colored icing. That was fun. I used an icing tip that I’ve never used before but have always wanted too. It was a good tip.

Anyway besides that and my new laptop I haven’t been doing that much. I’ve watched a bunch of crap on Hulu and listened to a butt load of Pandora.

The summer is almost coming to an end. I’m going on vacation the last week in August and should post that week about it. I wasn’t going at first then I decided to go. I’m going to try and get a a lot of good pictures of the beach. That should be nice. The house I’m staying in has a game room with a pool table apparently. I hope I get a nice bedroom, I have a feeling I’m going to be staying in it a lot. I plan on taking more pictures of the ocean then getting in the ocean. I want to get up at sun rise and go to the beach and take pictures. I never have in four years of going down there. And this year is the year to say goodbye since I’m not going next year. So I have to do everything I’ve always wanted to do down there. I might go and see 500 Day’s of Summer if I can. I really want to see it. I also hope to write a few lyrics while I’m down there. Maybe the sea air will inspire me. I’ve always wanted to before but I never had any inspiration.

Anyway it’s time to watch a short something and eat and surf the web a little before going to be in two hours. I hope to get in bed in two hours. I’m trying to get in bed earlier then usual… where have you heard that before? But no really, I have to get on a good schedule by the end of this month. No more of this four am crap.

Tomorrow I might go swimming.

~ Sparks Out ~

Some Day’s Life Is Okay and Other Day’s It’s Just Not

Music: Pandora.

Mood: Slightly down.

I’ve got big news! Well big too me. I got my first laptop! It’s a Dell and it has 160gb space and it’s 15.6 inchs screen wise, it’s vista which I am going to change to Windows 7 when it comes out. I love it though, it is so awesome. I can’t wait to buy accessories for it I already got a bag for it but I still want to get: A 4 to 8gb SD card and reader, A nice small inexpensive mouse, A cool cover for the back  and Sims 3. I’m so happy I got this. I really wanted a Netbook and I still wouldn’t mind getting one in the future as this laptop is 6 pounds. A wee bit annoying to lug around and I plan on lugging it around everywhere. I let people talk me into getting this instead the Gateway Netbook I wanted to get. I don’t regret my decisions at all. I love my laptop.

I put 4 photos I took recently in the local fair. I won three second places and one honorable mention. Which I guess isn’t so bad. But I’m kind of tired of getting second place. For just once couldn’t I at least get first? I don’t know though I am quite comfortable in second if I got first I don’t think I would know what to do.

Now that I have this laptop I am hopefully going to be able to post more on here. I missed once last month which I hate doing I have missed twice this year so far.

I just got an account on Pandora! I really like Pandora though it keeps playing things I have already heard. I guess I listen to to many similar artists.

I woke up today 15 minutes before I had to get up. I hate that. I went to bed way to late. This laptop is making me stay up way to late.

Sometimes I feel like everything I am saying I have said in one way or another on my twitter.

I am getting my haircut next week. I think at least I might, if I have the courage. I haven’t cut my hair in years, like perhaps half my life. I never cut my hair, ever. But I’m thinking about cutting a foot off for locks for love. That will only leave me with about a foot. I love my hair. I know, I’m weird. I like to think that it is the defining thing the thing about me, that people know me by, my long long blond hair. What will I do if I cut it off? I don’t think people will know me anymore. But what if I look better without it? Anyway I don’t actually have an appointment yet so it may not happen.

AF put up their fall classes. They don’t have any acting classes for my age but I am okay with that because it would be canceled anyway, now I don’t even have to get my hopes up. I still am going to try and take an acrylic painting class. I hope that isn’t canceled. I want to volunteer to help out a little kids art or acting classes. I really hope I can do that.

Now as it is very late I should sleep because I don’t want to see the sun come up tonight. Tomorrow/today I have a rough time ahead of me. Somethings I’m not looking forward to doing. But don’t we all have those? However I am looking forward to making Rainbow cupcakes. I made my first marbled cheesecake the other weekend. It came out good but I can do it better.  Anyway -

~ Sparks Out ~

Summer Is Almost Over Again

Music: None I’m watching The Listener.

Mood: Bordering on annoyed.

I wish I could say my recent absence is caused by the fact that I have been so busy this summer with things but that is sadly not the case. My summer has been boring and I don’t feel I have gotten near as much as I can do. And time is now running out.

I can’t stop twittering depressingly, I think I’m gonna have to stop before I depress everyone else.

I went to see My Sisters Keeper with my sister last weekend. I thought it was really good. I didn’t think it was that emotional at all. I kept wanting to cry at all the scenes that  no on else was crying at. And I thought Alec Baldwin was really funny! Me and my sister kept laughing at him, none of the other woman in the theater were laughing at all. Did they not have a sense of humor? How can you not laugh at Alec Baldwin? It wasn’t as sad as they seemed to think either, they kept sniffing.

I’ve become obsessed with a Canadian TV show called The Listener. I don’t even think it’s that good I’m just hooked! I can’t get enough of it. It’s on Hulu And I’ve watched most of the episodes so far. It’s about a telepathic guy who is a paramedic. It’s more exciting then it sounds.

I got the Watchmen on blu-ray! The directors cut! I haven’t watched it yet though I really want to.

It’s so easy to plan things but they never seem to work out how you want. I wish for once they would. I can’t believe there is only about a month left of the summer.

Last weekend I also went to a used booksale that my library has every summer. You can find some awesome books there for really cheap. And I got some nice books too.

I put a nice bigger desk in my bedroom. Now I need a Netbook to pu on it. I really really want a Netbook I’ve become quiet obsessed with getting one. I even know the one I want.

Anyway I should go finish rearranging furniture and stop watching the Listener. Have a nice week.

~ Sparks Out ~

Music:  Some metal that my brother is playing in the background.

Mood: Lazy.

Happy Fourth o Jul -whoops! That was yesterday.

50/90 started yesterday too. Which I refuse to let myself do… No matter how much I think it will be good for me. (I’ve already written most of 1 song. )

I’ve spent most of the past week watching season 4 of Angel on the new flat screen 40 inch TV in my house. It’s nice. I like it, the TV I mean.

I’ve never seen season 4 of Angel before and I absolutely love it! Some of the scenes with Cordy and Connor though can make you want to kind of vomit. But besides that it’s awesome. I love that Lorne is in the show more now. I really like Lorne but I guess who doesn’t?

Don’t you hate how things never go as you want them? Sometimes I feel as if I have to have something to do ever minute or I am wasting my time. Even if I am procrastinating at what I have to do at least I have that thing to do. I really hate days where by the end the only thing I accomplished was having it end.

I entered a summer reading program at my local library – I figure with how much I normally read I might as well win things while I do it. And the really annoying thing was, I was going to try and cut back on my reading this summer so I could focus on getting a job and other such things.

Which reminds me tomorrow I have to go and apply to some more places.

Now back to my song I am writing and then maybe a movie…

~ Sparks Out ~