Music: Kate McGill
Mood: Quiet/excited/nervous.
The physical place I am in is the same. But the place I am in is different.
Taking the long way around to become myself.
Finally.
No more of me being the person who wanted so much to be someone. Am finally the person becoming someone. I can look back now and I can look forward. I am in the middle.
Am thinking about the end of the year. About all the things I have done. All the things I have thought about. All the ways I have changed but am still the same.
I still play piano.
Music still means the world to me.
And I still procrastinate.
But now I procrastinate at doing different things. More meaningful things.
Am still waiting for the year to be over but am not waiting stationary. Am moving towards the end of the year. Instead of patiently waiting, am moving, jogging, running, towards 2012.
The future isn’t the only thing I have.
Am proud of myself. For everything I have done. And the things I have not yet done. Am proud of the way I continue to grow and continue to care, more, everyday.
Am still the girl who waits but now am also the girl who runs toward what she is waiting for.
Sparks
Me, Em
